No anxiousness to meet Krishna

Hare Krishna,
15th January, 2015. Gurgaon


I had a flight to catch to Bangalore on 14th of this week on a business trip. The flight was not too early but still I got up before my normal waking up hours, anxious that I chant some rounds before I leave, open the altar, offer bhoga to Lord, have breakfast prasadam and then leave in time for the airport.

I was able to do all the above but before leaving for the airport a thought crossed my mind `why can’t I follow this every morning, why can’t I wake up with same anxiety every morning and be all dressed up, anxious that now for next two hours or so I will be meeting Krishna ( While chanting His name). But no, I have no such feelings or anxiousness at all. A very shameful state of my mind.

As the luck would had it, I was reading the book `Madhurya Kadambini’ in the flight and I found the below lines which very aptly describe my current state.

I constantly give up nectar of Krishna’s name and always spend my time in such useless talk such as family life, security and what not. I received the precious jewel of bhakti by the mercy of Vaishanavas and my Spiritual master, I am so unfortunate that I kept it tied in the hem of my cloth. Unaware of its value, I was searching out for a cracked cowrie shell, a tiny speck of false happiness, on the shore of the ocean if mundane activities. Thus wandering here and there, I passed the years of my life in vain. Not practicing any activity of bhakti, I have simple shown lethargy.

This is exactly what I really am, a lazy and lethargic person in my spiritual journey.

Any hope for someone like me ? Sure there is.

Nityananda Prabhu’s lotus feet !

One of the signs on His foot is `Goad’ (ankusa) – This mark indicates that meditation on Nitai’s feet brings the elephants of the devotee’s minds under control and keeps them on the right path.

So the only option left for me is to meditate daily on the lotus feet of Nityananda Prabhu and pray to Him to keep me on the right path.

I sincerely beg you to please pray for me that somehow I am able to meditate on Nitai’s lotus feet every single morning and seek His mercy on this most fallen & lethargic soul.

All glories to Sri Guru and Gauranga.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

6 thoughts on “No anxiousness to meet Krishna

  1. Dear Giriraj prabhu,


    Thanks for your realizations. As long as you find yourself fallen (we all are to some varying extent) that you don’t take things for granted,still aware painfully of your wretched and hopeless condition, somewhere you are doing alright bcoz you don’t cheat yourself and you are still trying hard to some extent.


    Madhavendra Puri das

  2. Hare Krishna Prabhuji,

    Please accept my humble obeisances.
    All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

    Thank you so much for reading the blog of this neophyte. Its really a honour for me when such a senior devotee like your good self reads it and leave his comments too.

    Prabhuji, my worry is that I may just learn (or already learnt!) the trickery of word jugglery to convince myself that I am crying in my heart whereas in practice I remain a dry and parched heart with no love for Krishna 🙁

    HG Ganaganarayan Prabhuji daily SMSs his wake up time and I am ashamed to write my own, add this to the fact that most of the days I am not able to chant my rounds before going to office. Kindly give some advice to this shudra to overcome my lethargy.

    Your insignificant servant,

    Giriraj Das

  3. Hare Krishna Giriraja Prabhu,
    Your question cum problem is welknown. Nectar of Instruction tells us Niyama Agrah. It means set your priorities. Work-life -balance – extpand it to work-spititual life – material life balance. The maths may become too completed but most easiest part is BG 9:27. Understand the meaning of a prayer and remember that we are not debt free. So be humble and say thanks to all, pay obeisances to all and perform your duties with full effeciency and best of your ability. Live a full life that is what Krishna wants. Set an example.
    Cheers Rampriya Das

  4. Hare Krishna Prabhuji,

    Please accept my humble obeisances.
    All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

    Thank you so very much for reminding me of Niyam Agrah and making me read the BG 9.27 verse. It is simply your mercy on this shudra that you have given such simple yet clear advice to me. I will try my best to follow it.

    Your insignificant servant,

    Giriraj Das

  5. HARE KRISHNA Dear Giriraj Prabhuji,

    Please accept my humble obeisances at your holy feet. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

    Thank you very, very much, for sharing such an important and inspiring article, which has come as an answer to my anxiousness, which is going on in my mind for couple of weeks !! I feel like it’s Krishna’s causeless mercy upon us, which has flown through your, this touching article ! My sincere prayers for you to our beloved Gaura and Nitai, to bless you whatever They feel best for you and your family. Also, I beg at your holy feet to keep us in your prayers to get fixed in Nitai’s lotus feet, for Sri Guru and Gauranga’s pleasure.


    With my gratitude and humble prostrations unto your holy feet,
    Aspiring to be your servant,

  6. Hare Krishna Prabhuji,

    Please accept my humble obeisances.
    All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

    Thank you very much for your kind words for this shudra’s writings and more so for praying for this fallen soul, I am indeed very grateful to you. I wish I had similar compassion for everyone.

    Can I please humbly request you not to write such high respectful words for a neophyte like myself, I am not at all what you assume me to be !

    I will pray for all the readers today.

    Your insignificant servant,

    Giriraj Das

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